I just feel.....

Like I don't know.....Right now I am in a point in my life that I just don't know. I have been through adversity time after time in my life and have felt this way. I have always gotten back up per say and continued on my path. But, this time, I just don't know. I don't have much energy right now, I'm just tired and worn our emotionally. I work extremely hard to accomplish my goals and to keep a positive attitude. I'm a person of character, that's what kind of people I were raised by and that is how I intend to live my life. But when all is said and done I feel like I have NOTHING. Nothing at all, no hope, no dreams, no motivation, no love, no promise, no nothing. I am just continuously disappointed. Essentially that's the story of my life, being disappointed time and time again. By people, by coaches, by friends, jobs, situations, you name it I've been disappointed. As a result even though its not fair to anyone around me I choose to not talk, not to interact, not to carry on dialogue not to do anything and just shut myself off from the world. My worst critic is no one else but me. I don' t care at all what people have to say about me, about how they feel about me or anything else. I'm my worst critic and I dream big and expect big things from myself. I expect nothing but greatness from myself, I don't feel like I am an average joe regardless of what kind of box people like to put me in. I really have nothing else to say....